HELLOO my dearest cg! ahahaha...
It's the FIRST FIRST FIRST saturday of 2007!! hahaha make some noise man. becauusee it's also the FIRSTFIRSTFIRST tm of the YEAR!!! YAY (:
Anyway, all of us just had the FIRST week of school! How was it people? Hope you guys had fun during your first week! X)
But, the MAINMAINMAIN reason why I'm blogging here is because I just wanted to share something that happened..that past week!
Well, before school started, I was reading everyone's blogs and everyone was talking about school starting and the homework and the what not's in rgs. And the more I read the more I started getting worried.
I wasn't worried about the homework. I wasn't worried about the stress. Because, well, tm and cg and the BIBLE has really taught me A LOT about how God is always there for us and how grades are not the most important thing at all...
I was worried about my faith.
I was really worried that my faith wasn't strong enough. I was worried that.. well somehow the stress would GET to me and I would drift away from God.
Last year was a really pivotal point in my spiritual life because that was when God changed my life so MUCH that my priorities were all changed. And... well I was worried that I would CHANGE BACK into what I was BEFORE.
and this REALLY REALLY affected me the few days before school started..
So, the more I thought about it the more I knew that nothing could help me overcome this fear, except God! So I just wanted to keep reading the bible, keep doing qt, keep praying so that God may speak to me or stengthen my faith.. or well.. something.
Well, the more I did qt, everytime it would tell me something different. Well, here's a part from my journal.
I realised that by worrying over such things, I'm doubting my faith in God and God's might to change me (FOREVER) and God's love that He wants to draw us close to Him. How could I ever doubt God's LOVE??? If there's anything greater than EVERYTHING, it's God's LOVE! God's love never changes. Only people change. But God has the power to change people. into who He wants them to be. If there's anything I should fear in this world, it's God! When I fear God and accept His awesome-ness, there's nothing I need to fear! Not even losing faith. Because God can and WILL hold us close and change us, if we ask for it! And I'll keep praying and praying that God will draw me close, even when in times of trouble. And here are some bible verses that really encouraged me during this time.
...I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one can snatch them out of my hand. My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all; no one can snatch them out of my Father's hand...- John 10:25-30Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life... Look at the birds in the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? - Matthew 6:25-26 And as Philippians 4:6-7 says, and as we all should know, we should not be anxious about ANYTHING. but instead ask God in prayer, and He will guard our hearts and minds. Yep! And.. as I continued to do qt, I really felt like, well, "I know people change. But my God can change me" and I will PRAY that God will change me INSIDE out so not only my priorities change, but also my mentality, my thoughts....etc.
And, throughout my first week of school, everyday, God gave me opportunities to share the gospel! And that felt great! Because the more I shared the gospel and my testimonies, the more I felt the PASSION for the lost and the FIRE for God!!! And even though neither of the 2 I shared to accepted, I know God is working in their lives... (((:
Yep and those opportunities also kind of encouraged me that God si STILL THERE for me! :D
Well I wanted to share this with you guys because for me, I always fear losing faith and I don't know if you guys do too, but I thought if you guys feel it too, then I'd share this thing that happened to me... :D
kk bye! see you later at tm!!!
oh jo-ann here by the way (:
changeme.
4:54 PM
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